Dear Mimi

Early yesterday morning, my mom and dad called me to let me know that my grandmother, Mimi, passed away peacefully during her sleep Saturday night.

If you’ve been reading my blog for a while, you know how much Mimi means to me. She was the matriarch of my mother’s side of the family and was always the spunkiest member of the bunch. I cannot wrap my head around the fact that I will no longer hear her stories and contagious laughter or feel the warmth of her hugs or taste one of her homemade sugar cookies. 

Mimi

This morning, I find myself sitting here, feeling the weight of losing Mimi, unsure what to really do with myself. When emotions have overwhelmed me in the past, one thing helps me work through everything and that is writing. So today I am writing a letter to Mimi, my beautiful grandmother. 

Mimi Julie

Dear Mimi,

I love you. I miss you.

I miss the smell of your house. I miss watching you add an item to one of your many lists, your handwriting a perfect cursive that reflected your incredible artistic ability. I miss watching you spread jelly on your English muffin at the breakfast table in your silk floral robe. You somehow always managed to look glamorous at 7 a.m.

I miss the way you would use the words “tickled to death” to express your excitement over anything that brought you joy. I miss the way you would light up whenever you’d tell stories about Papa and the love you two shared. I know he was so happy to see you, the mother of his children, in heaven on Father’s Day yesterday.

Mimi2

When I learned of your passing, the tears came immediately. I couldn’t stop them, but I was surprised when I also couldn’t stop all of the happy memories that came flooding to the forefront of my mind. These memories only made me cry harder but they also left me with a feeling of comfort. I had 30 years with you. Thirty years with a grandmother who could not have loved her daughters or grandchildren more. Thirty years with a grandmother who absolutely could not wait to become a great grandmother for the first time.

Your reaction to the news of our baby is one of the most joyous memories I have of you. I will never forget the way your hands shot into the air or the squeal of delight that came from your lips when you learned you were going to be a great grandmother to a baby boy.

Happy Mimi

Laughing Mimi

I wish with all my heart that you could have met our baby, but I will be forever grateful for the baby shower you and Aunt Laurie threw for me two weeks ago. You were surrounded by your family. Your sister, your daughters, your nieces and grandchildren and so much love and laughter!

Mimi and Family

You are at the center of so many family memories. Big Thanksgiving dinners at your house, served on your best dishes. Family Christmases in Gettysburg and long evening chats in your family room – you in your chair and Papa in his. A scotch on the rocks sitting on the table next to you, of course. Sanibel Island vacations and gigantic seafood dinners at McT’s and Gramma Dot’s.

We have so many memories together, Mimi, and I treasure all of them.

Mimi

One story you loved to tell was a story about the time when you called my parents’ house to speak to my mother when I was very young and I answered the phone. You would laugh when you spoke of how I talked and talked to you for the longest time before you eventually asked, “Julie, where are you?” My reply? “In the closet.” Apparently I took the phone in the closet to hide because I wanted lots of uninterrupted time to talk to you. I crave that time right now, but part of me knows I can still talk to you whenever I want.

From what we’ve been told, you passed away peacefully in your sleep. I hope you were dreaming wonderful dreams. You’ve given me so many wonderful memories and served as a pillar of strength and love in our family for as long as I can remember. A social butterfly, through and through, I know you will be missed by more people than you can possibly imagine.

Count me at the very, very top of that list.

I love you, Mimi.

With love always,

Julie

Comments

  1. Terri says

    I am so sorry for your loss. Sending prayers for understanding and comfort to your family. It sounds as if she passed without pain and I pray she has left her earthly suffering behind for something much more magnificent in Heaven. Your beautifully written eulogy reminds me so much of my grandmother (I couldn’t get through it with dry eyes). Again, I am sorry for your loss.

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  2. Heather says

    What a beautiful tribute you wrote, So sorry you lost someone so very dear to you. It sounds like she went the best possible way. I understand what it’s like to lose someone special before an upcoming big event. I know you’ll cherish having had her presence at your shower. Prayers for ypu and your family.

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  3. Adrianna says

    I’m so sorry to hear this Julie. many prayers and blessings to your family.
    Sunday makes 4 years since my Mima passed, and not a day goes by that I don’t think of her. tears still flow a lot, but I know she’s watching over us, as I know your Mimi is, too. God bless 🙂

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  4. says

    So so sorry for your loss! Prayers for you and your family. I loved reading your sweet words about your Mimi and know she will be in your memories and heart forever! Thankfully we know that God has prepared a very special place for her with streets of gold!

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  5. MJ says

    So sorry for your loss Julie. No words can make this loss better but reflect on all the wonderful memories you have of her and all the love she brought into your life. Your baby boy has a new guardian angel in heaven to watch over him, protect him and care for him from there.

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  6. Liz says

    I am so sorry for your loss, Julie. I know exactly how you feel losing a grandparent. All 4 of mine have been gone for some time now and I miss them every day. This letter you wrote to her is very touching. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this time.

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  7. Shannon in Tustin says

    This was just beautiful! Made me cry…God’s peace to you and your family as your celebrate Mimi’s Homecoming!

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  8. says

    You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers Julie! Just this past week my family & I have attended 3 funerals. The first guy collapsed in his kitchen and didn’t make it, the second guy had an unknown infection on his heart and went through so much trauma in the hospital leading up to his passing, and the third guy was killed on his way traveling to the first guy’s funeral. Sadly, this year has been a year of deaths for my family & friends and our community, but it has reminded us all to be thankful for the time we have with the people still with us. We have repeatedly been reminded to cherish everyone moment we have and hug & love our loved ones every chance we get. I hope you can find comfort in knowing your Mimi is watching over you & your family and all of the beautiful memories you were able to share together.

    xoxo

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  9. Kristine says

    Just catching up on your blogs. So very sorry to hear about your grandmother. What a touching letter to her, brought tears to my eyes. Thanks for sharing – brought back wonderful memories of my grandmother too. Hugs!

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