Hi guys! I wasn’t able to post this morning because I had quite the early start at work and I just couldn’t make myself wake up at 4 a.m. to blog. I’m coming at you a little later today. I missed ya!
Breakfast + Work
My morning began with cereal for breakfast in the form of Kashi Go Lean Crisp!
This was my first time trying the cinnamon crumble flavor and I thought it was great. The cereal was nice and crunchy and actually held me over for much longer than I anticipated until it was time for my morning snack.
After I quickly polished off my cereal, I headed out the door to work. I worked through the morning and managed to sneak in my own workout right before it was time to teach my TRX class.
My workout for the day included a cardio hodgepodge that looked like this:
- 15 min. elliptical
- 10 min. incline walking
- 20 min. adaptive motion trainer
- 5 min. row
After my workout, I toweled off so I could teach my class before I finally had a chance to grab a quick shower in the locker rooms before lunch.
And that catches us up! I’m currently blogging on a brief lunch break and wanted to touch on today’s 10 Day You Challenge topic!
It’s time to chat about our fears. Here we gooooo!
Eight Fears
1. Enclosed Spaces
Claustrophobia is something I really struggle with and it’s also something that frustrates me a lot. While I logically know some of the tight spaces I find myself in are totally safe, I cannot suppress the panicky feeling that comes over me when I find myself in small, enclosed spaces. It can actually be really embarrassing (like the time I couldn’t participate in a cave exploration activity on a trip to the Outaouais Region of Canada last year) and I really wish it wasn’t such an issue for me.
2. Needles
I am terrible with needles. I get all sweaty and lightheaded at the thought of a shot. This is also the main reason I don’t have my ears pierced. (And yes, I’ve been told by many people that getting your ears pierced isn’t that bad, but I am a giant baby.)
3. Something Happening to My Family
I’m not sure why, but occasionally I’ll get a really weird feeling and start to worry a lot about my family’s safety. Most of my worries center around car accidents (again, not sure why?), but a big, big fear of mine is something happening to the people I love most in the world. I want them to stay safe and healthy foreverrrrr.
4. Sadie’s Lack of Immortality
Every part of me wants to believe that Sadie is going to live forever. When Ryan and I talk about retirement one day, Sadie is included in our plans. Occasionally I’ll step outside of my denial bubble and realize that Sadie won’t live forever and it tears me up inside. I cannot even think about the day she won’t be around to invade my personal space and force her love on me because it makes me want to cry and hold her forever and ever.
5. Childbirth
Ryan and I really want to have children one day and I hope I am able to give birth, but the whole thing terrifies me. When bloggers share birth stories, I try my best to read them because I’m excited for the birth of their babies, but another part of me is completely horrified since I can hardly read half of a blog post about childbirth before I feel queasy and have to scroll to the bottom just to make sure everyone is okay. The whole idea of giving birth to a baby seriously overwhelms me. Major high fives to all the mamas out there!
6. Someone Breaking Into Our House
Remember when I thought someone was breaking into our house!? Sheer panic. When I was little and my parents would ask me about my biggest fear, I’d always say that my biggest fear was “bad guys.” I’m just plain scared of someone breaking into our house and harming us.
7. Raising A Child
Raising a child is such an incredibly huge responsibility. I feel both excited and intimidated by the thought of being a mom. It’s not something I “fear” exactly, but it’s something that scares me a little bit because you can’t exactly practice or prepare ahead of time. I just hope Ryan and I are able to create a home environment that is loving, safe and supportive. I always tell Ryan that if he is half as good of a dad to our kids as he is to Sadie, I think we will do alright. Ha!
8. Cockroaches
I think Florida is the cockroach capital of the world. Florida cockroaches are not only gross, but they’re freaking huge and they can fly. Horrifying.
Question of the Day
- What are some of your biggest fears?
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We share alot of the same fears… especially claustrophobia! Sometimes I feel so panicky on planes and in elevators and I get so mad at myself for doing that, but just haven’t found a way to calm myself down! It’s definitely a real fear.
I can totally relate to you both!
And the childbirth thing…Seriously? I thought it was only ME!! I have feared the whole ordeal for as long as I can even remember…is that even normal?! It’s crazy to me how celebrities + blogger mums make it all seem like a breeze and talk about it with swift emotions. I feel as if i’d never get through it! This is deffo one of my fav posts of yours so far 🙂 So reflective, I can’t even cover everything I want to say back to what you’ve written 🙂 xo Tash
I think childbirth is one of my biggest. But I also live in fear that me or one of my loved ones will get injured. I just want everyone safe and happy forever. 🙂
As someone who once blacked out during a simple blood draw, I was such a trooper giving birth. They even had to try 3 times before placing my Iv and I kept my cool. Somehow you will overcome your fears to have kids trust me
I’m with you on the family thing. And I was also scared to have a baby….I talked to everyone about it for months before I decided to take the plunge. Now, 18 years later, it is what I love most in life…being a Mom! I won’t tell you my birth story or it will just increase you fear. But everything was allright in the end and that’s what matters.
I have some of the same fears– especially cockroaches. I live in New York, but the worst I’ve seen were in LA. My fears tend to geared more towards life/career goals. I worry that I’ll never learn to balance the two.
I am crossing my fingers for an announcement soon! 😉 haha
I love being a mama! Having a baby was painful, but you have no idea the ‘gross’ stuff that might make one queasy (at least I didn’t–was so focused on breathing through the contractions) during the actual birth. It’s actually the spouse you should be worried about! My husband was a champ but he thought he was going to pass out near the end. 😉
a fear of mine: someone breaking into our home too!
I”m terrified of childbirth too! I always tell people that I’m going to adopt : )
Seriously… WHY THE PICTURE OF THE COCKROACH?! I feel ya.
Minus ten points for me today. Ha! If it makes you feel any better, the pictures I saw on google images when I looked for a cockroach photo will haunt my dreams.
I’m claustrophobic, too! I had to get an MRI last year and when they put me in the machine I made them take me right back out. I had to come back a month later…..and they made me take medication beforehand the second time! It’s awful. Even if I get a shirt stuck over my head I get panicky.
It’s amazing how open and transparent you are! I feel like pretty much everyone in the world can relate with the fears you have… I sure can! Many of my top fear are on your list. Thanks for being so genuine.. It’s quite encouraging!(:
Great post! I can totally relate to your fears of something happening to loved ones and my sweet french bully. It makes me cry just thinking of her not being around.
As a kid my fears were kind of out hand. I was most afraid of something happening to my parents, but also other things ranging from a house fire to kidnappers and even being tarred and feathered (seriously).
Great post! I can totally relate to your fears of something happening to loved ones and my sweet french bully. It makes me cry just thinking of her not being around. I’m also fearful of not being able to have children.
As a kid my fears were kind of out hand. I was most afraid of something happening to my parents, but also other things ranging from a house fire to kidnappers and even being tarred and feathered (seriously).
I loved reading this blog post and the one before. It’s fun reading these facts about you! Also, while burglars are totally scary, for some reason the picture of that creepy guy breaking in is cracking me up.
Childbirth and Needles are definitely at the top of my list. My mom always says that I need to get used to needles and having my blood drawn if I am going to have children. Ugh – really? My biggest fear is actually being gassed or put under. Even when I go to the dentist I opt for pain over the laughing gas (or whatever it is). I am so thankful that I have never had to be put under for a surgery, because I don’t know if I could go through with it.
I’m afraid of heights, getting blood drawn (shots don’t bother me nearly as much), and tight spaces. I may also be mildly afraid of the dark.
I am TERRIFIED of fish. Not eating them, but swimming with them. Haha So bizarre…
I first read #4 as “Sadie’s lack of immorality” haha, I thought hmm has she made that many bad decisions!?
I fear the future sometimes, but I know God is in control!
I fear roaches as well. We have nicknamed the huge ones skateboarder roaches because they are so big. Yuck and yes they fly. One time my little girl and I vacuumed up one(because we don’t like going near them) we got him and a few seconds later my daughter is screaming, it was crawling out of the top of the vacuum. Okay I just freaked myself out again!
I totally relate to the things happening to your family thing. Sometimes the thought of my brother getting in an accident since he can now drive pops into my head without any prompt and I immediately tear up! It’s really strange. I’m also terrified of getting appendicitis – and last night my mom was exhibiting every symptom of that. Too-fer. Thankfully, she got some tests done and is okay. This post came at an appropriate time for me apparently, haha!
We share some of the same exact fears. One- Someone breaking in…I am TERRIFIED and have an irrational fear of windows at night like someone is creeping in on me. Two- My families health. I am the youngest but for some reason I feel responsible and the need to take care of everyone in my family. Three- My poor puppies NEED to live forever!
SO glad to see someone shares my same fear of something bad happening to family members. My family thinks I’m nuts, but any time they’re driving in bad weather or getting on a plane I automatically think about what could happen. Glad I’m not alone on that one!
I definitely have many of the same fears. My biggest is something happening to my family, and I have those same panicky feelings as well. I think it just means we have overwhelming love for them, which is a wonderful thing 🙂
One of my biggest fears is having a family. I’ve always been an only child so the whole idea scares me!
I’m terrified of flying. The weird part is, I didn’t get that way until later in life. I’m not sure why – the fear (part of a fear of heights) – the fear just clicked in one day. I don’t want to miss out on travel so I’ve had to start taking medication to fly.Yikes!
I was afraid of giving birth, too, but we really wanted to start a family and it all worked out. Once you have that baby, you can hardly remember life without him or her. We’ll all be here for you.
Totally with ya on the dog and childbirth. First of all, I can’t even imagine how sad I will be when our little puppy crosses the rainbow bridge. She’s 5, and I hate it! I get so sad thinking about how even if we have children soon, they might not remember her.
Also, the whole pregnancy/childbirth physical stuff terrifies and baffles me. Like how your belly moves, because the baby is in certain positions!?! IT FREAKS ME OUT! And then giving birth. WHAT!?! My mom had all c-sections, so I can’t even rely on her for advice.
You will not be alone for childbirth. You will have lots of help and support, I promise! Missing from your list are 2 of my fears – sharks and snakes. Not too great with spiders either! Ha.
I can completely relate to #4 and Sadie. My husband and I have a three year old bichon/shitzu and he is our world! I sometimes think about how one day he won’t be here and I start to cry and panic. I dread the day we have to say goodbye and as I’m writing this I’m getting tears in my eyes and a lump in my throat. I just try to cherish everyday we have with him and make him as happy as possible…I’m at work right now and all I want to do now is cuddle him 🙁
Other fears are flying, having an epidural during birth (we are expecting in November and I don’t think I can handle a needle in my spine!!), and losing my immediate family (sometimes I wish we could live in one big apartment complex, lol).
Love this post because you are so open, honest and real. While childbirth doesn’t scare me per se, it’s definitely something I think about and wonder how I’ll handle-as well as raising children. But the ones about your family, Sadie, and the “bad guys” when you were little (my sisters and I as kids always were afraid of “bad guys” breaking in!) are all three huge for me! I sometimes get panicky that something happened to my family, too (and it’s usually car accidents for me too!) and can’t imagine my dog, Mocha, not being around forever.
Another one for me, although not a *fear* necessarily, is drowning. I used to swim competitively and the feeling of no air when you actually start to lose vision/blackout (we had to do a lot of “no breathers” to build our lung capacity) was one of the most terrifying feelings-similar to being in a closed-in space. I could handle any amount of physical pain from hard training thrown at me but I couldn’t handle many “no breathers”-I was definitely the weakest link on the team for that one.
Definitely a lot of the same- childbirth, fear for my family, someone breaking in- I even deadbolt the apartment door if I”m home alone and taking a shower, because OBVIOUSLY that’s when someone will break in and kill me. I’m (weirdly) afraid of frogs (my next door neighbor’s granddaughter used to throw them at me), whales, clowns, creepy old china dolls…. I’ve got a few but fortunately I don’t stumble across most of those in DC!
Claustrophobia is one of my biggest fears…and is why I usually take the stairs instead of an elevator (besides the fact that it’s also better for you…haha). My sister lives in Tampa and it took her awhile to get used to the cockroaches (so gross!).
I am due in 6 weeks with my first and I am actually not too scared. I try not to think about it. If millions of other mommies can do it, I can manage a few hours of pain.
UGH COCKROACHES. I live in NYC so we have our fair share too. Luckily (y’all better be knocking on wood right now!) I’ve never had them in my apartment but I see them frequently on the streets and even a few times in my office building. Also — I NEVER knew they could fly until a few weeks ago when we did see one in our office and someone said, watch out, it might fly. They are creepy enough on the floor, I didn’t realize I needed to worry about them flying too! 🙁
And I get those panicky feelings too about my family. Glad I’m not the only who obsesses for no reason sometimes! 🙂
It is nice to know I’m not alone in my fear of losing my little man (puppy!). I sometimes think I’m crazy because I’ll just get so upset thinking about it…
I feel like you just wrote out my 8 fears. I especially feel ya with the random worrying of family safety, the whole childbirth, parenting fears and especially….the lack of dog’s immortality. I live in that world of denial as well. ;p
I feel that way about my pets …. what is the point of life if you have to say goodbye to everyone?
I also don’t have my ears pierced because I am afraid of needles!! I’m glad I’m not the only one!
Thanks for reminding me about Florida cockroaches…haven’t seen one on a while but boy are they terrifying! I was afraid of childbirth too, but when it all happens the excitement and adrenaline takes over, and it is not as bad as you think!
First, I love your blog. I wanted to comment because two of your fears were big ones of mine that I recently overcame. Childbirth and parenting… My husband and I just recently welcomed our first child and it is the most amazing thing in the world..to have created a miracle that is made up of you and your husband is beyond words..just think how much you love Sadie and magnify that times 1000.
Besides losing my family, it’s flying. I have a HUGE fear of flying and it’s terrible because I long to travel. I just don’t like being in the air. 🙁
I was terrified of childbirth also! I am a huge wimp when it comes to pain and I wanted to go all natural so a lot of people laughed when I told them that. I tried to exercise as much as I could and my labor ended up only being 4 hours! (: I said I wanted some medicine but she was ready to be born so it was to late! It hurt, but you can do it. 😀
I am also afraid of my husband deploying one day, that something will happen to our beautiful girl when he is gone and one day we will get out of the army.
I TOTALLY get the fear of childbirth. For years, anytime my husband and I talked about it (married for 5 years pre-children) I would cry because I was so fearful. There’s actually a phobia and I am convinced I had it. Yes, I said I HAD it. It got so bad that my husband told me he was afraid of me being pregnant because of my such intense fear. But I got pregnant and that fear just miraculously went away. Probably because there was no other way out ;). And raising children is NO JOKE! Man, seriously the most intense, hardest thing I’ve ever done. Ours are now 6 (on Thursday!!!!) and 3. I’ve heard childbirth likened to a marathon. And you’re a runner. Childbirth was my marathon (eventhough I had two c-sections).
Btw, I’m terrified of spiders. I can barely even type the word.
I’ve always been scared of something happening to my family.
My second biggest fear — the deep ocean, down where its dark with weird monstrous fish with huge jaws. Scary.