Losing Pepper
I want to write more about Pepper. I want to share about our bunny-hopping, licky love machine and her spunky, affectionate personality. I want to share all the good about Pepper with you right now and direct my focus and sadness into remembering why the void she left feels so big — because we loved her so much — but I know there are likely questions and I want to get this part out of the way because this is the part that is ripping me into pieces right now.
Yesterday morning, once all the boys were in school, I leashed Comet and Pepper up for a walk. We walked a route we’ve walked a million times. It’s a walk we’ve done with the kids and dogs too many times to count. We were more than a mile from home and walking across the street from a neighbor’s house. Their German shepherds were out and started barking as they ran toward their fence. They were behind a fence so I glanced away toward Pepper and Comet who were not reacting and just peacefully walking and sniffing along.
And then I glanced back toward the fence and the larger German shepherd was out of the fence and running at top speed toward us. I was immediately on alert because of the dog’s speed and yelled a firm, “NO!” but the dog kept coming and made a beeline straight for Pepper. Tiny Pepper who adores other dogs and has never met a stranger. Everything happened at warp-speed as the dog took Pepper’s body into its mouth. The dog grabbed Pepper’s torso and would not let her go as I screamed and screamed. I just remember yelling, “NO! NOOO! NO! HELP! PLEASE HELP! SOMEBODY HELP ME!” at the very top of my lungs, hoping and praying the owners would come outside and call their dog off or the dog would drop Pepper and she would somehow be okay.
It was all so fast and a blur and I just remember falling to my knees and and trying to get to Pepper. I was terrified for Pepper and I was terrified of this dog that didn’t seem to hear me yelling as it kept attacking my defenseless tiny dog. Pepper was was on her back with her little mouth open and her tiny paws in the air not standing a chance and this helpless feeling of pure terror is one I am struggling with so much right now. I cannot stop replaying this moment in my mind and it makes me shake as I type this and it makes me want to vomit and cry and permanently erase this from my memory forever because it was so, so awful.
The neighbor next to the house with the dog that was attacking Pepper has two dogs who came running down their driveway barking and this was the distraction that stopped the attack, as the dog dropped Pepper and took off toward the other two dogs. I immediately scooped Pepper’s limp body up in my arms at the exact same time an SUV drove around the corner and pulled over. My friend Molly lives in the neighborhood and thank God she just happened to be driving down the street and heard me screaming and pulled over right when she saw me. I just remember shaking and saying my dog was attacked and Molly saying, “Get in.” At this point I finally saw someone walking down the driveway of the house where the dog came from. I yelled out, “Your dog attacked my dog” as we were loading Comet and Pepper into the car as quickly as possible because I knew Pepper needed immediate attention.
I held Pepper in my arms and kissed her again and again and told her how much I loved her as Molly drove us to the closest vet. I was so, so scared for her. I could tell she wasn’t okay. She was alive but everything that was happening with her in my arms (which I, again, cannot stop reliving), made it clear to me that she was not okay. Not at all. I told Pepper over and over again how much I loved her and that she was such a good, good girl. I stroked her tiny face, looked into her eyes, kissed her and loved on her with every ounce of love I had in my body.
We arrived at the vet within 5 minutes and I dashed into the lobby saying, “My dog was attacked! I need help!” They were incredible and immediately took Pepper from my arms. I was shaking and crying and so scared and upset. I called Ryan once they had Pepper in a room and thank God I got him just as he was boarding a flight home from a work trip in California. We were both just reeling.
Within a few minutes, the vet came into the room where I was waiting and told me they did everything they could to save our girl. They gave her epinephrine and chest compressions but her heartbeat never picked up from the slow thump they heard upon our arrival until it completely stopped beating. I was feeling for her heartbeat in the car and I knew in my gut it was much, much too slow for a small dog.
I just remember crying and crying and saying, “We loved her so much. She was the best girl. Our boys love her so, so much. They are going to be so, so devastated.” The vet could not have been kinder and more understanding. I asked to see Pepper again and she brought her out to me wrapped up in a towel. My girl. Have you ever felt like you’re the sun, moon and stars to an animal? I was that for Pepper and I couldn’t save her. I think that’s part of what’s ripping me apart. I wanted to help her with every ounce of everything I have inside of me and I couldn’t.
I just cried and pet her tiny body and thanked Pepper for being the very, very best girl to me, to our family and, especially to our boys. The boys who began every single day racing down the stairs to greet HER. Not Mom or Dad, but Pepper. The boys who scooped her up when they wanted a moment to read on the couch because she’d always nestle in to their blankets and be the best cuddle buddy. The boys who morphed a tiny, fluffy princess of a dog into an outdoorsy adventurous girl who adored kayaking, camping and miles and miles of walking.
Our Pepper.
The hours that followed Pepper’s passing were miserable. I called the owner of the German shepherd. I felt sick and sad and just completely in shock. I still do. Pepper was perfectly healthy. Only 3.5 years old. We thought she’d be our family dog until the boys were into their late teens and early 20s. How was this real?
When our first dog, Sadie, died years ago it was horrendous and ripped my heart out but I almost felt like Ryan and I were allowed to be selfish with our grief because the boys were so, so young and not as connected to Sadie. This time feels different. This time my grief feels so, so heavy because it is so layered. Her loss was so sudden and so horrific but also… the boys. How was I going to tell them their beloved dog died? How was I going to tell them they wouldn’t have the chance to love on her one last time or say goodbye to the dog they adored who was only ever 100 percent love and spunky affection to them?
I have a friend who is a child psychologist who was an angel to me yesterday. We talked about how to speak with the boys. She encouraged me to be truthful but use words that weren’t as scary as “attack.” She said to say something along the lines of, “A big dog bit Pepper today. I took her to the vet and they tried as hard as they could to make her better. Sometimes when a big dog bites a dog as small as Pepper it’s too much for their little body. Pepper died today. I’m so, so sorry.” She encouraged me to tell them Pepper is not hurting at all anymore and she is in heaven and emphasize how it’s okay for all of us to cry and be sad right now because this is really, really sad.
Ryan’s flight landed around the same time I was heading home with the boys after school and we told them together. We had the boys go straight from my car into our backyard because we knew if they went into the house and weren’t immediately greeted by a teeny dog whose excited tail wags wiggle her whole body, they’d know something was up.
The tears immediately started flowing from the boys as they understood Pepper was no longer alive. We told them it was okay to feel really, really sad. We told them our whole family feels so sad because we loved Pepper so, so much. We told them the sadness might not go away for a while and that’s okay, too. We told them about how after Sadie died the very, very worst we felt was the day she died and the days after. And slowly, very slowly, we still felt sad but the sad it didn’t hurt us quite so much. Slowly, we were able to laugh more about our Sadie memories than cry. We promised them this would happen with Pepper, too. Right now we’re going to be sad and cry a lot.
Hours later, Chase turned to me and said, “Mom? Is she really not coming back?” My heart broke again because I understood. It felt unbelievable. He said, “I want this feeling to go away. I just want her to come back.” Ryder said, “If I could have one wish in the whole world, I’d wish for Pepper.”
Me too. We all just want her back.
Last night sucked. I knew it would and it did. One of the best parts of my day, every day, was when I would crawl into bed at night with my book and hear Pepper’s tiny feet scurry across the floors of our bedroom after me. She’d fly onto the bed, and bunny hop over to me, waiting for me to lift up my blankets so she could curl into my belly as I’d read.
This morning sucked. I knew it would and it did. The boys came down and it was like it hit them all over again because their days always began with Pepper kisses and Pepper playtime. We snuggled up on the couch to read together this morning and tears immediately began flowing because we all knew Pepper would normally be a fluffball right on top of our blanket. Right in the middle of our family where she belonged.
My stomach is in knots and I keep thinking I’m out of tears but I’m not. This is just really freaking hard and we are just really freaking sad.
We miss our girl so much.
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I am so sorry. I can’t put into words how sorry I am for you and your family. This is just so sad and so traumatic for you to have to have gone through and now have as a memory. I have had dogs all of my life and love them so much and losing a pet in such a devastating way has to be one of the worst things a pet parent can go through. They are a member of the family and when we lose them it is devastating. Let yourself, Ryan and the boys cry as much as you need to. Some day you will laugh over the silly things she did but right now take the time to grieve. I cried the whole time I read your post yesterday. We lost my moms dog (Katie) a couple of years ago and my son was so heartbroken. My mom had Katie when my son was born and she was only a year older than him. He has known her all his life and grown up with her. It was so hard seeing him so sad. We have done little things over the years to remember her and honor her. One thing he still does is sleep with her leash under one of his pillows. Thank you for sharing Pepper with us. I will miss her stories, seeing the tip of her ear that flopped over and the boys with pepper. Keeping you all in my prayers and hugs to all.
Just horrifying. I’m so, so sorry you are all going through this. What a nightmare.
Completely heartbroken for you and your family. What a traumatic thing to experience. Will be keeping yall in my prayers! Sweet little pepper made a big impact for a tiny pup 💗
Julie, Ryan, Chase, Ryder and Rhett, and Comet of course, I’m so sorry about the loss of sweet Pepper, especially in such a tragic way! The loss of a pet is just as bad as losing a family member, because they are family! I have loss a few of my pets but not like that, I can’t imagine. I hope that owner of that dog will make it right! My prayers are with all of you! 🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️
Oh Julie… my heart breaks for you and your entire family. RIP Pepper. What an absolute tragedy.
Julie I am completely heartbroken for you and your family. I read your post yesterday and came back today to let you know your family is on my heart. Such a difficult loss. You’re doing a great job guiding your kids through this, even if it doesn’t feel like it. Pepper was so comforted in your arms during her last moments. Really.
This brings tears to my eyes. I’m so sorry this has happened to you and your family.
It’s been a full day since I first read your post and I can’t get your story out of my mind. I am so devastated for your family but especially for you. You did not deserve to experience that. And nothing was your fault. Pepper was so loved for her ENTIRE life and she knew nothing but being part of an incredible family.
Sending you all the love as you and your family navigates this next chapter. Thank you so much for sharing her joy with us. We are all grieving with you.
I’m absolutely devastated to hear this. I am a long time reader but I haven’t commented much. I know how much you adore your dogs and how much they are a part of your family. This grief is like losing a family member. I’m so so very sorry for this traumatic loss. Know that your online friends are here, holding your grief, alongside you.
Julie I am so sorry. She was the best girl you’re right. Forever in your heart with the best memories of the past. Know you and your family are in our prayers. So many tears. As we feel little fuzxy pepperoni was a part of our family too. We love you pepper. Lots of love and hugs from us.
Julie,
I am so sorry for your loss. This is absolutely devastating and I’m praying and sending love to you and your family.
I recently read a book called Signs by Laura Lynn Jackson. It is about signs we receive from our loved ones who have passed, including our beloved pets. I encourage you to ask Pepper for a specific sign to send to you and your boys letting you know that she’s still with you. It is a great comfort!
I have no doubt that Pepper is with Sadie and watching over you and your family.
Much love.
Second the recommendation for Signs. It is an amazing book and so helpful in my relationship with my lost loved ones. I have gotten numerous, extraordinary signs from my late father since reading Laura Lynn and it has opened a new world of grace and connection.
I am heartbroken for your family. It’s never easy to lose a beloved pet but for it to be so sudden and violent… I can’t even imagine. Thankfully, you have each other to lean on and share your grief. I am so so sorry this happened.
Julie, as a longtime follower, I am heartbroken. Pepper found the perfect family for her, and she clearly brought so much joy and love to your lives.
My beloved grandmother was killed by a driver who failed to stop at a stop sign. To lose a loved one in a way that seems so senseless knocked me down in a way I can’t describe. Time, faith, and loved ones pulled me through the grief. I get the sense that you have an amazing village of loved ones – lean on them. And let us as your readers carry a bit of the grief with you.
I greatly respect your vulnerability in sharing this … you may, in some way, be preventing this from happening to another family.
Julie,
I am heartbroken and devastated for you and your sweet family. Crying with you, praying for you. May God wrap His loving arms around you, ease the burden of your trauma, and bring healing to your heart.
I am so so sorry, Julie. You did everything RIGHT, and while
I imagine this is on replay in your head, I hope you can remember that you were Pepper’s biggest comfort, not only in the moments following this awful incident, but in every moment of the wonderful life you guys gave her. You’re doing a beautiful job guiding your children through this and walking alongside of them as they also grieve. I’m so sorry for all of you
Julie, I’m so very sorry. Thinking if all of you.
My gosh Julie, I’m just so sorry for your and your family’s loss. So heartbreaking.
My heart is broken for you, Julie. I am so sorry for your loss. I remember reading your very first Pepper post and I loved that you adopted her from an animal rescue. It’s unthinkably devastating that your time with her was cut short, but I believe you and your family gave her the very best life during your years together and that is everything. I am thinking of you and sending you and your family love and strength during this difficult time.
I am completely devastated for you and your family. This is traumatic beyond words, and I pray you all feel loved and supported as you grieve. I will keep you all my prayers.
Oh, Julie. I’m so sorry. I’ve been thinking of you and Pepper all day since reading. That is such an awful, deeply traumatic event you went through with a much beloved member of your family. I’m just speechless. I know you are a great mom and will be focused on getting your boys through it, but please make sure you focus on you too because what you saw and felt has so many layers of horror and powerlessness. <3
Related…a friend went through something similar, and they waffled on filing reports and going through the legal process because it wouldn't bring their dog back so they thought 'what is the point', but ultimately knew it was the right thing to do and they were glad they did it.
And Molly was definitely sent by an angel or something to be so close and able to help <3 a very small thing in the grand scheme of such horror and tragedy, but it stuck out to me immediately while reading.
Thinking of you all
I’m so sorry for you and your family! Pepper found the best family and it just seemed like she was so loved by all of you. You gave her a wonderful life! Sending peace to help you through the grief.
I am so sorry. My heart breaks for your family.
Oh Julie, the tears over here are flowing reading this post today. You are one strong momma and did the very best you could for pepper. I’m glad the dog didn’t attack you or comet as well. My heart is with you and your family as you grieve through this time and the weeks to come. As a dog momma myself, this is one of the greatest fears I have as well. I hope you find closure and a way to learn to walk confidently again with comet.
Julie, I am so so sorry for you, Ryan, and the boys. I’m so incredibly sorry and sad that Pepper experienced something so terrible. I know Sadie greeted her on the other side and I know that’s not a consolation. Sending you all so much love.
Absolutely horrifying, Julie. I am long time reader and my eyes were filled with tears for you and the boys. I hope the owners of the German understand the magnitude of what happened. Saying some prayers for you guys and trusting somehow, someway, in God’s fatherly care, he will bring something good out of this horror. 💕
Oh Julie, I am so so sorry. Sending you and your family all of the love ❤️ that is so heartbreaking and unfair
Julie, I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you and your family. Going to sleep last night, I started crying thinking about your precious Pepper. I am just so sad. This happened to a small dog in my old neighborhood. I had seen the dog and its owner many, many times on walks. I am thankful I didn’t witness the attack, but just hearing about it haunted me and saddened me so much. I was in therapy at the time and I remember talking to my therapist about it because it was so upsetting. I don’t know if this is true, and I only share this for all of the dog owners who might read it, but I remember reading once that if a dog is attacking someone, we should throw something on top of its head. Obviously we wouldn’t always be carrying a blanket or towel when walking our dogs, but ripping off our shirt, or another article of clothing, and trying to throw it on the dog’s head can maybe disorient/distract them enough that they will briefly stop their attack. But in many cases, even doing that (if it worked) would still lead to the loss of the pet b/c things happen so quickly. The day after I read about Pepper, I emailed my friend who has a small dog, and I told her about Pepper. I said, “I want you to start carrying mace or pepper spray or a stick when you are walking your dog.” I truly believe that you sharing Pepper’s story will help save lives. Please know your readers are praying for you and wish we could take your pain away. I keep thinking about your sweet boys and about Comet. But my biggest concern right now is you. This was truly a traumatic event. My heart just breaks for you.
Julie, I am absolutely devastated to hear this!!! My heart is with you and your entire family. I cannot imagine the pain you all are in after such a devasting loss. I had a traumatic experience with losing a pup and I know how this is affecting you mentally and emotionally. It is breaking my heart to pieces for you. Please know so many people are sending you comfort and love during this extremely heartbreaking time in your lives. I am so sorry you experienced this Julie. Pepper will live in your hearts forever.
Julie, I read your story yesterday and haven’t been able to stop my own tears as I think about it. I’ve been reading your blog for decades and have always appreciated how real and vulnerable you are, so I’m mourning your loss along with your family. Pepper didn’t deserve such a savage ending, but you gave her a joyful life and that’s what you should hold onto as you grieve.
I remember when my beloved family dog died when I was 5, and asking if it was okay to cry. Being young and navigating death is complicated and challenging for budding brains, and I’m glad you’re supporting your boys as you navigate your new life.
Lastly, just hold space for yourself in all this. The trauma you endured will probably linger, so just be patient with your own healing journey. Find ways to ease that journey, whatever that looks like for you. (My strategy after I had my miscarriage 2 years ago was a lot of concerts to just reconnect with my body in a positive way.) People like me love you from afar and wish you only the best. We are sending you love and hugs. <3
I am so so sorry for you and your sweet family. What a terrible, horrible thing to happen. Praying for you and your boys ❤️🩹
Julie, I am so sorry this happened. I am devastated for you and your family. M herat hurts for you.
Someone mentioned looking into EMDR therapy. As a licensed therapist who usese EMDR with clients, I completey agree that this could be extremely helpful in processing the whole event and loss (when you are ready). It also sounds like you and Ryan handled the boys perfectly in this situation. Again, I am so very sorry. You are in my prayers.
Oh my gosh, Julie. I didn’t even know Pepper, and I am sitting here sobbing myself into a quivering heap. I am so, so sorry. There are truly no words. I’m so sorry for your incredible trauma, for your family’s pain, and for the loss of your sweet girl. I know there is nothing that can be said to stop your pain, but know that this is not your fault, and you gave that baby the best life imaginable. May she rest in peace. xx
My little Alfie got attacked by a leashed dog while I was walking him years ago. It’s absolutely horrific trying to get the images of that out of your head and I’ve been traumatized by it so much that I am a little nervous around dogs now because of it and it’s never been that way before that. I’m so so sorry to hear about Pepper – what a sweet angel puppa and I know exactly what you’re going through. So traumatic and traumatizing….the feeling of being ill etc. It brings me back
Julie I am so so sorry for your loss of Pepper. I cried reading this and just want to give you the biggest hug.
My Sunday mornings always involve catching up on your blog and searching for recipes for the week; I always enjoy searching your site for healthy ideas to incorporate in my week. I am sitting here now with tears rolling for you and your family over the loss of sweet little Pepper. I have been reading since Chase was a baby so I know how important your fur babies are in your family. Sending you and your family loads of prayers and love.
Oh Lord, I hope you all find peace in your heart and overcome such a painful experience. My prayers for all your family today. I don’t want to be in GSD owner’s shoes ever. Take care and hope the boys manage to overcome this new feeling. God Bless
I first read this horrible news last night, and I have not been able to stop thinking about it. I woke up in tears overnight and had to leave the gym today because I just couldn’t stop sobbing. The sorrow and empathy I feel for you and your sweet girl can not be overstated. I have followed your blog since the very early days and though I obviously didn’t know Pepper, seeing her adorable little face and reading how you wrote about her, brought her joy and spunk into all of our homes. To read of her tragic passing has affected me to my core, and I’m just so overwhelmingly sorry that you had to go through that. Your precious girl deserved to love a long, healthy life, surrounded by all the love your family had to give. Having experienced sudden, tragic loss myself, I know what it is to replay every single moment. To wish you could rewind time to stop it happening. I know what it’s like to wake up and for just a single second, be okay, until you remember. I’m just so, so sorry this has been visited on you. Please take gentle care of yourself and know that you did everything right. Pepper had more love in her 3.5 short years than many will know in their whole lives. You did that for her.
I’ll be making a donation in Pepper’s name to a local dog rescue, in the hopes that it helps another dog know the love and wonderful life that you afforded her. In the meantime, I send you so much love. May her memory be the blessing that helps heal you.
Thank you for sharing her with us.
Rest in peace, Fuzzy Pepperoni. xx
I’ve experienced this, but I was the owner of the big dog.
I’m sharing this to hopefully help another dog family, and to validate for you that this was a traumatic experience. Unfortunately, I doubt it will leave you. Mine happened 20 years ago and my cortisol shot up reading your post. Right back to the moment, when my hands were shaking so hard I had trouble writing my phone number down.
Our situation was a bit different in origin, but not outcome. I was walking my 60lb mutt and stopped to chat with a women carrying/walking an adorable, fluffy puppy. The cutest, like a living stuffed animal. The dogs were standing near us and my dog casually bent down, picked up the puppy, and gave it a couple of shakes. No warning sounds, and it didn’t even seem aggressive. It read more like curiosity, like my dog going, is this a toy?
We were both shocked. My dog dropped her puppy easily and the small dog was alive but making weird sounds. My vet was down the street so I gave the woman directions, wrote down my phone number, and asked her to let me know when everything was okay. A day or two later, she called to tell me the dog had died at the vet. The shake was too big for its little brain.
She shared with me a bit about her family—two young children, her husband was a new principal at a local school, the puppy was a recent addition and everyone’s obsession. I offered to pay for her vet bill, which she declined. I wrote her an apology letter that I guarantee was deeply insufficient (I was in my early 20s and couldn’t understand that impact like I can now, with my own family and pet.)
It changed me, as a dog owner certainly, but also in my judgements of people and situations. I think I’m a good person, but my dog killed someone’s dog, and isn’t that my negligence? I still feel the weight and responsibility of what happened.
I love big dogs, always will. ALL THE TIME I have small dog owners let their dogs run up to mine, mentioning how much their little dog loves big dogs. Nope. I will always leash my dog or hold them close. It can be the most docile pet in the world, but it’s still an animal.
Big dog owners, your dog can accidentally kill a small dog VERY easily.
Small dog owners, don’t send your dog near unknown big dogs. It’s just not worth the risk.
I’m so sorry, Julie. I’m really so sorry.
My dog and I were attacked by an unleashed German Shepherd a couple of years ago. I still consider it one of the most traumatic events of my life. I found myself hesitant to share that with people because I felt as if they would think I was being dramatic. But until you have gone through it, you just don’t know. It is the most helpless, terrifying feeling. I’m so, so sorry to hear what happened. I truly can empathize with what you are going through.
I am so sorry for your loss. Thinking of all of you.
Julie, Ryan, and boys,
My heart breaks for you all. I was literally bawling reading your post and can’t even imagine the agony you’re feeling. I hope that you can find comfort in the hard days ahead as hard as it may be. Thinking of you all, I’ve followed you since you had Sadie and I know that dogs are a huge part of your family. Lots of love and hugs to your family and hopefully Comet gets lots
of extra love while you all grieve.
Julie,
I am so deeply sorry to hear of your loss- what a horrific way to loose a sweet member of your family!
When we lost our first family dog, Carter, the vet gave us a book that was so so helpful for our kiddos and I’ve gifted it to any friend that has lost a beloved pup. Dog Heaven by Cynthia Rylant (I still read it from time to time and choke up each and every time I read it!). I’d love to send a copy to your family, please reach out via email if you’d like me to Amazon it to you.
It truly has helped us navigate the loss of our sweet Carter girl and when we lost our other dog Cash. Praying for comfort and peace for your whole family as you heal from this experience!
My heart breaks for you and family. Sending prayers for comfort.
Julie, I am so so sorry to hear this and truly devastated for you and your family. I have read your blog for the last fifteen years and never commented but I wanted to express my sadness for you and your loss. It is apparent that Pepper was so loved and the perfect pup. Trust that she felt peace and love in her last moments with you.
Julie, I am so terribly sorry for your loss. As a fellow dog parent, I cannot imagine the devastation that your entire family feels and I couldn’t stop crying reading this. I have been reading your blog for probably 20 years now and usually don’t comment but I couldn’t not try to reach out and express my condolences. Pepper truly sounded like such a bright spot and I have always enjoyed hearing about her adventures and little moments with your boys and I’m so devastated for you all that she was taken so early. I will have you all in my prayers tonight; heaven is a little more adorable tonight with little Pepper ❤️
Oh Julie what a traumatic and profoundly sad loss. I am so, so sorry. My small dog was almost killed by an off-leash pitbull and just reading your post made my heart race. I can’t imagine having to deliver the news to the boys. My heart goes out to you and your family.
I have been following your Blog since your boys were so young. Was so sorry to hear about Pepper and what a heartache it is for your family. I did cry and still weep when I see the pictures. Know Pepper is at peace in doggie heaven. You will be in my prayers and God comforts us.
OMG ~ I’m so so sorry. That is so heart wrenching. My heart breaks for you, Ryan and the boys. 🙁 That is one of my biggest fears when I walk my girls. Sometimes I carry Mace, but from now on I will make sure that I have it with me always.
I’m so sorry for your loss. My heart aches for you. I pray that God brings peace and comfort to your hearts in knowing that Pepper will be bunny hopping to great you in heaven one day. Sending you all love
I’m so sorry. We had a similar situation happen with a pitbull and our yorkie. My husband was there and put the dog in a headlock until it released, but the damage was already done and we lost our sweet boy.
It gets better day by day. It’s been years and we can think on him fondly without crying, just focusing on the good times and memories. I’m so sorry this happened to you, and you’re at the beginning of this journey when there is so much pain and anger and guilt. Stay strong, sending so much love.