Toward the end of my pregnancy, I fully expected to still be pregnant on my due date. At my baby shower, I predicted Chase would arrive on August 12, but he had other plans! Our little boy is 12 days old today and I can hardly believe I’ve been holding him and snuggling him for 12 days already. We had his two-week checkup appointment at the pediatrician this morning and everything looks good! Chase has gained exactly one pound since he was born and we should have a seven-pound baby on our hands very soon.
For as incredibly overwhelming and exhausting as life is with a newborn, I already cannot imagine life without Chase and could truly stare at his face for hours every day. I have been telling everyone that he has the ability to make 2,000 different facial expressions in 2.5 seconds and each one is cuter or more ridiculous than the last. He can go from looking like the sweetest little newborn to an old man to a curious little baby in a flash and I have a feeling I will never tire of watching him yawn, purse his little lips and raise his eyebrows… all seemingly mundane things that somehow feel like a shot straight to my heart as I stare at his face and try my best to force myself to commit all of his adorable expressions to memory.
So how have things been going over the past week and a half? GREAT. You guys, I am honestly shocked at how much I love being Chase’s mom.
I want to be completely honest here and say that I was really, really nervous about how I would adjust to life with a baby. I just couldn’t picture it and that both worried me and made me feel a little anxious about how I’d handle everything. Would I feel the undying love I hear moms talk about?
The first day in the hospital, I think the feeling of disbelief took over more than anything. I spent every waking moment holding our baby and feeding him and trying my best to wrap my head around the fact that this tiny person was my son. By day two, I felt the most extreme attachment I have ever felt in my life. I felt incredibly protective and absolutely enamored with this tiny baby. And right now? I feel happier than I ever could have imagined and so incredibly in love with this little dude.
I feel very fortunate that breastfeeding has been going well so far and Chase seems to be a good eater. I feel a bit like an always-topless milk machine at the moment! My nipples are sore (bless you, nipple cream), my boobs are hard and engorged and I’ve ruined at least two tops already due to leaky breast milk stains. Chase seems to think daytime is snack time and nighttime is meal time, but hearing that he is gaining weight and looking healthy at his first two pediatric visits was the best news. Grow baby, grow!
(Sadie is getting braver and braver around Chase every day! So proud of her!)
On Wednesday last week, I took Chase to the Nursing Mother’s Place for an appointment with a lactation consultant. It was fantastic. Chase was eating regularly and latching well, but the minute I sat down and started to feed him during our appointment, the lactation consultant chimed in with lots of different tips and tricks to help make breastfeeding more efficient and comfortable for both of us. It was very informative and incredibly helpful!
During my appointment, I used the My Brest Friend nursing pillow and knew I had to buy one the minute I left. I had been using the Boppy up until then and while I still like it, the My Brest Friend pillow offers more support and closes up the hole between me and Chase to make it easier to support him as he feeds.
I am hoping to type up a blog post all about the things that surprised me most about the first few days after birth and life with a newborn – what I didn’t expect, what no one told me about, favorite baby/nursing/new mom care products and more – because I feel like I am learning new things every day as I get to know our new baby. Stay tuned for that one when my brain is working a little better and I have the ability to write about something other than loving on Chase.
Also, I want to say a quick thank you to all of you. I really appreciate your understanding right now as I try to navigate life with a newborn and blog when the time is right while still doing my best to prioritize caring for and cuddling with Chase. Watching him grow so much right before my eyes is the perfect reminder to slow down and cherish these precious days with our sweet baby.
I hope all is well with all of you and that you all had a wonderful weekend!