I had every intent to share a blog post with you guys yesterday. I had half of it typed up and ready to go but just couldn’t finish it. The blog post was a simple recap of our Tuesday.
I made banana bread protein pancakes for me and Chase. We took poor Sadie in for a liver biopsy after spending three hours at the vet with her on Monday. (We are obviously concerned and are hoping and believing everything will be okay. We should have the results from her biopsy within the next week or so.) We met up with friends for a sunny play date at a local park and ate a delicious Blue Apron vegetarian meal for dinner.
I photographed this oatmeal.
But I also had a follow-up appointment with a maternal and fetal medicine doctor in the late afternoon.
Sitting in the waiting room while one beautifully pregnant woman paid her co-pay and the receptionist congratulated her on the ultrasound pictures of her baby was hard. I truly felt happiness for this woman because she looked so radiant and the joy you feel in your heart when you see a healthy baby growing in your belly is overwhelming in the best possible way. But I also felt a rush of grief knowing Ryan and I would never have those moments of excitement and relief with the baby we lost.
During my appointment, I saw my uterus without our baby in it for the first time. I felt the internal pressure of the ultrasound knowing that the doctor wasn’t looking for a beating heart.
As my doctor said yesterday, sometimes a miscarriage serves as an incredibly tragic reminder of the fragility of life and the miracle of a healthy pregnancy and birth. I don’t feel like I took one second of my pregnancy with Chase for granted but I also have a whole new outlook on just how lucky Ryan and I were to experience a healthy pregnancy and labor with our first baby. I hope and pray we will again one day, when we are ready. The seemingly tiny moments in the grand scheme of a child’s life – a black and white dancing baby on the computer screen of an ultrasound – have new meaning to me.
I was nervous for my appointment but left feeling very grateful when the doctor assured me everything looked okay internally. I didn’t expect to feel as overwhelmed or emotional during my appointment as I did, but after the ultrasound, when I sat up, I thought I might vomit. It was one of those, “I’m okay… and then I’m not” (repeat) moments.
When I arrived home, rather than take the time after dinner to finish my blog post which surely would’ve been a hot mess, I hung out with my family. Sometimes I feel like I’m all talked out about everything and then something like Tuesday’s appointment will trigger a whole new set of emotions.
So today, amid the tangled web of words and emotions that are constantly floating around in my head and in my heart and on this blog, I wanted to talk about something comforting. Something warm and something simple.
A perfectly delicious distraction.
This high protein hemp oatmeal is a satiating recipe I’ve been making for breakfast when I want something slightly sweet and filling first thing in the morning.
I’ve been playing around with adding hemp seeds and hemp protein powder to various smoothies, overnight oats creations, pancakes and more and this oatmeal is one of my favorite ways to enjoy the plant-based, vegan-friendly protein powder.
I typically make a large three-portion serving of this high protein hemp oatmeal so I can simply reheat it for breakfast another morning. Plus, it tastes fantastic the next day. (If you feel like it needs a little help coming back to life, I recommend adding a small splash of almond milk to the oatmeal before microwaving it to add a little moisture while keeping the oats nice and creamy.)
And don’t forget to add your favorite toppings to this warm and comforting bowl of oatmeal. (Tip: Toppings are key to making this oatmeal look appetizing. Green hemp protein powder + Beige oatmeal = Not a recipe for an attractive breakfast.)
Some of my favorite mix-ins include unsweetened coconut, fresh berries, pumpkin seeds, sliced almonds and a drizzle of nut butter. And if you prefer a slightly sweeter bowl of oats, add a drizzle of honey or a small sprinkle of brown sugar before digging in!
High Protein Hemp Oatmeal
Makes two very large servings or three small servings
- 1 cup old fashioned oats
- 2 1/2 cups non-dairy milk (I love almond milk or cashew milk)
- 3 tablespoons hemp protein powder
- 1 tablespoon hemp seeds
- 1 tablespoon chia seeds
- 1 very ripe banana, mashed
- 1 teaspoon cinnamon
- Pinch of salt
- Combine all ingredients in a medium-size pot. Heat over medium-high heat and stir regularly (don’t walk away!) for 10-12 minutes until milk is completely absorbed and the oatmeal appears thick and fluffy.
- Divide oats into serving bowls and top with desired toppings. Refrigerate any leftovers in an air-tight container.
Nutritional Information Per Serving
For three servings: Calories: 278 / Fat: 8g / Saturated Fat: 1g / Fiber: 14g / Sugars: 6g / Protein: 14g / Carbs: 43g
For this recipe, I used Nutiva Hemp Protein Powder which I love because there’s nothing else in the protein powder other than pure organic hemp protein. I also find that this protein powder absorbs other flavors easily. I order mine through Thrive Market but it’s also available on Amazon. (Just FYI, I’ve seen it for sale at Whole Foods for almost double what you can find it for online.)